Reflecting on being sick 24/7 just 7 months ago with HG #hyperemesisgravidarum. There were times I thought it couldn’t possibly get worse…
For 9 months I couldn’t stomach WATER 💦 . Water!!! I ate oyster crackers to try to stop the nausea and drank iced Gatorade a capful an hour just to get it down (until my mom forced me to eat and drink only to throw it all up) 🤢🤮.
I tell you the test of my relationship with God was unreal. (I talk direct – in reverence but really direct – to Him, like Your words says, X…ummm… guidance please.) But no physical healing (that I was aware of) came.
Nine months later, as soon as I gave birth, I could eat a cheeseburger an hour later like nothing happened. I still cry to this day about the suffering I felt and sheer spiritual impotency. Trust.
I had to go through the lesson to BECOME the understanding: LIFE IS WILD. He’s our companion. There are opportunities for Him to give an outcome agreeable to you at that moment, and then there are times when there’s more (a unique purpose).
For me HG was an understanding about life. This place is wild (crazy stuff’s going to try to take you out, but you’ll also see it in all its splendor). Same as when Jesus lived. It was made that way due to the fall of man. But we can trust that our lives lived with Him have hope. The opportunity to change circumstances is there. We just need to ask. And we can trust that if there’s another plan going on, He’ll always be with us. That’s it. Sobering. Truth.
Without Him, you’re left searching endlessly for a relief that is temporary and ultimately ravishes you. Creating emptiness was the mission of my sickness, physically, mentally and spiritually. It was intended to destroy mercilessly and entirely. But God, my Companion, He got an earful. And He made my horrific days less bad with a random good thought, or a family member or friend coming by…stuff like that.
So, whatever you’re going through (or have been through), look over those moments. Close your eyes. You’re in the jungle beautiful, and it’s teeming with great and awe-inspiring things, both tame and beneficial but also vicious and dangerous. Hold out your hand. Go with your Companion. Ask away. The jungle won’t change into Heaven. Neither will you outgrow needing to know how to survive. Walk with your Guide confidently knowing that whatever may come He’s overcome.